Years ago when I was just a child I heard the phrase, "When it rains, it pours". I guess that is accurate and my life grants evidentiary credence to that assumed truity of life. Nearly three years ago my dad's, little sister's and my world seemed to shatter into a million pieces when my mom died in a car accident while our family was on our way home from a family get together. A year and a half after that I was taken against my will by a selfish person whom chose self gratification over human decency. I became pregnant as a result of his depravity and in the last few days of finalizing my decision on an adoptive family for that innocent life within me, I ended up miscarrying while sitting in my 10th grade algebra II class. Now, a mere sixteen months after my miscarriage I have found out via a labyrinth of tests that I have GBM which is a rather aggressive form of brain tumors that will likely kill me within eighteen months even with treatment.
Sometimes I feel like God has chosen me to suffer.
Oh Alexis, I am so sorry. I am not going to go into a big spcheal since we have already been conversing and talking and mulling over survivorship, treatments, and whatnot. But, I just wanted to let you know that I read and that I care and am keeping you in my thoguhts and prayers. And not to be offensive, but God truly does still love and care. But since that topic is touchy I will leave it at that. Here if you need me. Blessings and all the support to you my friend. ♥ ((((((((you))))))))))
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment and support.
DeleteIt isn't that the subject of God is a touchy subject, it is that I feel abandoned by him. I have my reasons I feel that way and I am willing to discuss them.
Alright. I understand.
DeleteYour page looks cool and I went through about 15 different page changes on mine haha. I have a few questions to brace yourself for more laughing... :P
And I didn't find any place on your profile to add/follow you but I think I managed to follow you. Didn't I?
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You did follow.
DeleteI can't believe all that you have been through and are going through. You are so strong to have survived all of this already and I admire that in you. I am keeping you in my prayers.
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Thanks Sass.
Deletethinking of you...
ReplyDeletewish i could say more but everyone else said it all....i just feel like we are all a great team here....healing together...comforting each other....it means the world to me....
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Hi, thanks for the comment. I assume you know me from TBP or AS.
Deleteyes. and i have a nosebleed ;) (hint)
DeleteDon't blame it on my booger finger. LOL
DeleteI just got this blog again, thanks to you.. I am so sorry to hear this.. You really are a source of strength to me and others... I hope things get better... even just one part of it.. because you deserve all the peace and happiness in the world.. I know you can't believe it yet, but you truely are amazing and stronger than you give yourself credit for. Keep in touch.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry if my lacking memory is disconcerting. I KNOW I have heard from u before but I am having much difficulty remembering. Are you from AS?
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